Retake

OK now I think I should write more....yes, I've been really sad lately. Yes, that's why I have been absent from school a lot. I really think this grief is affecting my health, that's why I have been sick a lot. I really need some internal healing to take place, but I'm also filled with reassurance. I talked to an amazing person in the school nurses office (sick yet again!) and there was this boy in there that I had heard about from a teacher that had also lost his dad. I got to talk to him and he gave me amazing advice! I would have never guessed that a guy as cool as him could be so understanding. I felt like he was the only person in a long time that wouldn't stray away from the subject about my dad, plus he was comforting and understanding (no offense to all my friends!) and I was in awe. Thank you so much, you know who you are. You really took a major burden off my chest.

Ummm...

Uhhh....Hey everybody...I guess I haven't really blogged lately....I've been ok....lifes still pretty hard...but oh well...its all in Gods hands so I'm not that worried. I trust him! I'm actually getting happier the more I'm typing this...I just love writing...it brings out a lot of stress...Anywho hello out there to all my friends! I hope that you are having a good day!

The Anger Is Building Up

Hello again! These past few weeks have been really tough. I've just been really frustrated lately. My last report cards were...ouch. And my cheerful self hasn't really been showing. I just feel like a little kid if ya know what I mean...unimportant. I'm getting a counsler soon and she is pretty cool. She goes to my church and is a ball of fun. Hopefully I can talk over some things that have really been bugging me. i've been journaling to and have been kicking the soccer ball around in the backyard. I'm hoping for the best!

DADDY IS HOME!

Hey guys! I forgot to tell you before! Dad is home! We finally got him all cremated and stuff...ya its wierd. You know, I thought after cremated people would look like ash from a fireplace but actually its like a sandy color with bones in it. Wierd, right? My mom got all of a us a necklace so we can have a piece of dad with us where ever we go. Its exciting! Well, love ya!

New Year...New Change

Hey my friends! Wow, its already March! Time flies! So many things have happened! With minus Dad, Mom and the rest of my family moved into a smaller cuter house. I love it. School is going...ok. I'm in the time of boy-drama (oh the joy) and I can't wait for this hormonal season to pass. Umm...well ok I am just gonna say this. Its been really hard lately on me. I have been thinking about Dad non-stop. I just can't get himout of my mind. So...ya. Ok. Bye.

Memorial Service

Hola again my friends!!!! Today was my dad's memorial service. I had fun!!!! A lot of my friends were there hugging me and supporting me. Thank you to you all!!!! I cried during the song There Will Be A Day by Jeremy Camp. That song always reminds me of my sweet dad. I love you all!!!

PS
Yes I take after my dad's humor!!! Tee Hee

PPS
Yes I have a fart machine like my dad!!!

The Journey Is Over

8:20 Thursday morning my dad passed. He is in heaven now. I wonder what he is experiencing right now. I wonder what friends he is playing with. He is in peace. Think about it.